day 1546 – lost craves

i’m dropping weight since i’ve gone inactive, not a bad thing as it saves me the hassle of cutting so maybe i won’t always be called fat. i’m looking to drop some more while i have a legit reason to restrain myself the calories. knowing that, i consciously haven’t had much of an appetite the past few weeks. muscles mass is taking a hit without the work i do at the gym. my body is in a confused stage and is in worse condition than normal cause it’s not used to not being used. my body just isn’t use to not taking a beating and without it, i still manage to misalign things

day 505 – drained

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feeling awfully drained and really needing a break. no doubt i knew there would come a time when my mind and body will not allow me to continue with the kind of schedule i run on. its been wearing down on me for over half a year and now my mind is ready to go on strike. i wake up everyday feeling crappy and even more so exhausted knowing the things i have to get through day after day. all i want to do is shut off the world and finish what i have to do. it’s christmas season and all i am too drained to even enjoy it. i try to hide all that stress and pretend everything is okay because i don’t want to put it upon anyone else but somehow it’s showing through my shell. i need a break, i know its not time yet, but i know it’s coming in a couple more weeks

day 333 – hot summer day

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a green tea frappuccino to quench my thirst on a hot summer day filled with taekwondo. vanquishing the last of my five-hour weekend that is coming to an end just as it started. definitely need more down time before i begin another week of neverending work and practice. work hard play hard doesn’t apply when theres no time leftover for play. only a matter of time before my i hit the wall from this inhumane schedule