day 1522 – cavity check 

an extra unpleasant filling cause dentist said he had to use laser to cut some of the gum. that explains why i had four shots and still felt the numbing two hours into teaching. it makes eating difficult and it makes me hungry and not hungry at the same time. at the end of the day, i find myself a bit more disappointed with each passing day. it felt promising at times, but in the end i still haven’t been convinced. i’m still alone second guessing whether i’m only good and wanted when i’m willing to do what’s asked. it feels as though it’s more for the benefits and less of what my needs are. as long as i have this feeling, i will have my guard up and find ways to refuse it no matter deprived or not

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day 679 – fruit bowl

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the highlight of today is my morning’s snack featuring a nicely arranged fruit bowl for snack courtesy of mom. it’s without question living with parents is a luxury and i benefit from everything they do on a consistent basis. the little things that my mom does is truly a blessing and makes me feel like a princess. i want to stay a little girl cause i don’t think i am ready to move out anytime soon