day 849 – big decisions

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i think i made one of the biggest decision since my existence but i also think it’s a necessary one. i’ve been in limbo for quite some time but i kept quiet and tried to hide everything inside. today, i took a huge leap of faith and let go of something i really should have let go long ago, but was afraid to do so. i sat at starbucks to recollect myself because i wasn’t sure if i was aware what just happened. now it’s time to collect my thoughts and think about the steps i need to take moving forward. this was an all important decision and i believe it’s the right one because without it, i would continue to be a robot assuming my regular routine. this really forces me to focus on what i really needed to do – think about what’s best for me

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snippets of summer

it’s past the mid way mark of september and the weather is looking a lot like autumn season. not everything has gone the way i had planned – in fact, many things have gone awry in the past few months but i can’t complain because all in all, summer of 2015 has treated me well. i spent a fortune to get myself yet another sony flagship phone, had my fair share of summer sweets and indulgence, and more doctor visits and scans were prescribed. there’s always a first for everything including: my first and second ever long hike, took a leap of faith with tumbling and flipping, ample time spent on the beach and in the water having the opportunity to try wakeboarding, wakesurfing and paddleboarding. staying in the game is always important for me as always, with another nationals complete, another walk with the dragon fulfilled, more tennis balls crushed, and of course never escape the physio and injuries aspect of life. my gym quests never stops even though much of the time i feel slowed progress, but slow progress is better than no progress. and even though the physio appointments and kinesiologist lectures never ellude me, there’s a lot of positive improvements in terms of occurences and length of rehab time required to get back into the game. although i did travel to montreal, it wasn’t solely for pleasure but more so for competition purposes. i do wish traveling does happen for me in the fall or winter season. here’s snippets of what went on this summer as proof it happened, that i took a few steps in crossing out some of the things on my bucket list

resolution series: [twelve] mindset

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there’s never one solution to a problem or one route to a destination. different people will have different takes on things and often try to influence you in many ways so to make you see things their way, do things their way. it’s good to keep your eyes and ears open, but sometimes you just have to take a stand for what you believe in and stick with what you think you want to achieve. disregard what the majority of population thinks, so what if the rest of the world sees things differently. i learn that through the years you have to take into consideration people’s advice based on their knowledge and past experience, but there comes a time when you have to make a judgement call as to what you think is right and how you want to deal with a situation. there’s no perfect way of doing one thing. know that it is okay to be different because that’s what makes each person unique. find my own perspective, don’t let others decide and speak for me because it is my life to live. in the end no matter if the outcome is good or bad, know that i will be able to accept the outcome. that is precisely how we grow as an individual

resolution series

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starting a new series called resolution series inspired by an article based on 30 new year resolutions people in their 20’s should make or consider making to develop and prepare for the road ahead. the second decade of our lives is when we discover the most about ourselves as a human being, and learn to pave the road for what is to come in the future. this is the perfect opportunity to explore, experiment and experience all our options in shaping ourselves and becoming the person we want to be. there will be difficult times when it seems like there is insurmountable obstacles and challenges that lie between the start to finish line, but just know that it will be worth it in the end. i live by, and am always reminded, that when there is no pain, there is no gain. i hate thinking of the regrets in the past so here i am trying to take my life by the horn and live life to its fullest without regrets. i cherish all those that have entered my life and made a positive impact in all ways possible and i hope i have impacted other’s lives likewise. without your support, patience and guidance through all the ups and downs, i would not have the strength and motivation to continually make improvements. you listened to me when i vented, you lifted me when i fell, you held me together when i cried and ultimately showed me the meaning to true love and friendship. i am grateful for who i have become but i am not satisfied with where i am at. it’s never too late to make resolutions and changes towards a better me

鄭俊弘 – 無名氏

here’s some hamber pride to finish off the night. he’s a hamber graduate doing well in hong kong, from a nobody to a somebody making it atop the popularity canto pop hit list. like his song title says, he’s an inspiration to prove that you can do whatever you want as long as you put your mind to it. the world is so big, don’t be a nobody

day 601 – something new

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trying something new because i felt like a challenge was in order. wouldn’t mind adding some new skills into my repertoire and seeing how far it takes me. i honestly believe i am capable of achieving the goal i set out to do so, all i need to do is go out and make it happen. the day i make new ground or fully achieve a skill is when i can feel proud of myself for having worked hard for it. i learn to never stay stagnant, never settle and always be hungry for more because there’s so much out there waiting for me to experience

day 590 – spin at river rock

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what would i do after friday night training on friday the 13th?? testing out my luck at the casino but it is heart stakingly painful to watch as my stack of chips depletes. i am holding onto my stack of chips and playing it carefully, thinking i make strategic wagers that will win everything back. i didn’t break even but at least i went in with a set amount that i would bet so i knowing i can walk out without breaking my bank