day 1570 – ikea run

treated to ikea froyo for helping with the ikea run. haven’t been to ikea for some time and haven’t eaten anything from ikea in a long time. as much as i wanted to reject the extra calories knowing pubnight social food is in the evening, it was already bought for me. so much guilt as i hold onto this cone wondering what after effects it may have. i restrict myself to a deficit on a regular basis, so one day i will lose the fat name callings. until then, i’ll always be self conscious and not let myself always have what it craves

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day 855 – get it together

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feeling really upset with myself today for making poor decisions. also feeling upset that my hyperextended elbow got worse during dodgeball tonight. not cool especially with my all important playoffs coming up this weekend. no doubt i will turn it around starting tomorrow and stay the course. can’t stress how important it is from here on, no more hiccups allowed. need to constantly remind myself i have important things to do and big goals to reach

day 839 – not right

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i had a great weekend, only up to the moment i realize i had disobeyed all that i said i would do. i am fighting myself and feeling torn inside because i walked in with a number in mind but went well beyond that limit, i don’t know how it got so out of hand. it’s only finally hitting me hard today, the wheels have really fallen off and i don’t even know where to begin to pick myself up. what a heart felt disappointment when i have regretfully misused the trust others had in me. i failed others and most importantly i have failed myself. need to learn that discipline is choosing between what i want now and what i want most. perhaps i must be stricter and harder on myself and start my climb from the bottom again. i guess i deserved to have both my pinkies sprained during practice

day 796 – slow moving

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feels like a perfect sunday wasted. the sun is shining for once and all i did was teach in the morning and attend a marcom meeting in the afternoon. opted to skip out on gym as planned and not actively enjoying the rare sunshine we will hardly get in next few months. i hope the lethargic feeling goes away soon cause i can’t afford to be an antisocial couch potato

day 736 – night snacking

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so happy it’s already humpday wednesday and halfway through!! i can’t express my love for long weekends accounting for short weeks because it makes getting through the week that much easier. it would be a perfect paradise if three day weekends existed every week. man, people are such bad influences on me for tempting me to do night snacking that i could not refrain from. i do feel a little guilty after devouring that toast box

day 717 – chocolate chill

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it’s friday afternoon, the end of another week and i really craved something cold and chocolatey so i will allow myself to have cheat snack. not sure if i really liked it or my craving liked it. but i would describe timmy chocolate chill as an thick icy chocolate milk, or a poor man’s frappucinno. this better not become a regular craving because it would really get me chubs

day 677 – last of it

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hamberite catching up time with more shaved ice at icepik which was fitting for a scorching hot sunday afternoon. call me old school, i stuck with green tea flavour just like last time despite hundreds of other possible combination. i promised myself this is the last of the dessert pigging out for a while because there’s been too much of it lately and not doing me any good