day 1194 – power game

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felt gross internally after a night out at the pub eating poorly, got to clean it up. but that feeling was slightly negated because i got my power game going strong. in the short time i returned from competition, i’m already back in my lifting game and made a pr today. i can’t explain the happiness i felt because ever since i started, i had set a goal for myself and today i made that goal. you know all is good when i can get back snatching and going for more goals

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day 1147 – evening

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this is where i was in the evening, doing my thing in the architectural building. today was a really strange day which no routine, no structure where i had no proper meal. the conflicting feeling when i felt like i did a lot of things and at the same time felt like i did nothing. i don’t like it this way, let’s go back to the structured life and restore a little order and discipline

day 839 – not right

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i had a great weekend, only up to the moment i realize i had disobeyed all that i said i would do. i am fighting myself and feeling torn inside because i walked in with a number in mind but went well beyond that limit, i don’t know how it got so out of hand. it’s only finally hitting me hard today, the wheels have really fallen off and i don’t even know where to begin to pick myself up. what a heart felt disappointment when i have regretfully misused the trust others had in me. i failed others and most importantly i have failed myself. need to learn that discipline is choosing between what i want now and what i want most. perhaps i must be stricter and harder on myself and start my climb from the bottom again. i guess i deserved to have both my pinkies sprained during practice

day 504 – wednesday crew

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quality time with the wednesday night crew eating, drinking, playing games and just chatting. who would say no to free food that we are entitled to based on the hard work we put in to run the weekly show. so much bad eating over the holiday season and the the bad news is there’s more bad eating to come. as weird as it sounds, i think i am sick of seeing food