day 914 – leaf through

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came across this as i was leafing through my phone album for a kickass picture request. going through these pictures bring back so much memories, the times when i seemed to have a better grasp of competition. deep down i know i miss competition and really want to be back in the game, but knowing i will not return until i can step up my game. it’s been far too long since i last competed. the longer i’m away from the competition stage, the more scared i feel. i hope i’m able to control and improve not only my game, but my state of mind

day 315 – physio’s jail free verdict

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one of the best days that brought me the happiest news in past three weeks. physio informed me xrays shows no fracture and i no longer require an mri like initially suggested. which ultimately means i am finally jail free and cleared to gradually get back. all i need to do is do the exercise as i am told to work my way back up, and let my physio take care of the rest and hopefully make my comeback soon. it will for sure involve a lot of patience, hard work, training and tons of beating. i will no doubt work hard at it and push myself within the constraints, because i am determined to get back and surpass my top form

day 293 – the long road begins

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been putting off proper rehab for my ankles and knees and using temporary fixes throughout all the training. now that the nationals are over, it’s time to do proper rehab to train and strengthen it for long term fixes. physio was very angry and will not let me continue without addressing these issues. will be a long and difficult road ahead, but i am determined to do whatever it takes and stick with it to fix the issues and continue to train and do the things i love. because i believe what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, and i am out to prove it

day 262 – ankle problems

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back to physio where i belong. overall i am feeling relatively well considering a prolonged gap since last appointment. the major concern is my ankle stability has been blatantly obvious to me it’s getting worse in the recent days but very puzzled as to what’s been different to cause this change. need to find the root of this problem to fix and improve to withstand the stress and demand for training to my important upcoming events

day 249 – after effect

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the after effect of using resistance band during my training session. guess i should have taken a look at it while i was doing it instead of continuing and ignoring the pain as if everything is okay. pain is a reoccuring theme in my life that it now feels normal, to the point where my pain sensors don’t even register that as pain. only i know exactly what’s going on inside my mind and body, no one else would ever understand the pain i go through and what goes on within so don’t act like you do

day 201 – back on track

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today is a good day as my physio cleared me to resume light activities and training in preparation for competition. my eyes glowed and my heart exploded with joy when he broke the news to me. pleasantly surprised my physio got me back on my feet so quickly, i can’t thank my physio and kinesiologist enough for everything but i take some credit since i had to listen to stay put, work hard at rehab and do all those dorsiflexions. the best news in a week along with glimpse of sunshine in the afternoon

day 189 – ice and more ice

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ankle still swollen and only feels worse after a night of dodgeball. having consulted my physio, apparently he had told me i was suppose to ice for next three days and wasn’t suppose to be do sporting activities. now that really disrupts my schedule, what am i going to do for the rest of the week??