day 1798 – horseshoe way


getting into work after a long weekend is not quite fun. i was hoping the long weekend would change the insomnia and headaches but so far i feel little improvement. the one person at the office that never fails to give me stress is doing it again, and always trying to pick the moment when my manager is not present. both the planned and ambushed attacks are all part of her strategy to redirect blame when something goes wrong. the trend of taking drugs day after day is not the long term fix, i’m slowly beginning to think a visit to my doctor is necessary. now if only i can find time to make that call

day 1786 – thoracolumbar

img_20200204_190327344981603760484917.jpgnot how i had planned out my thursday. i had to leave work early, miss bootcamp and skip softball to visit my chiropractor. only then had i found out i injured my thoracolumbar junction. i’m in so much pain i couldn’t rotate, bend or reach. i wanted to continue with my sports, but there was really no range for that. of course, i tried to tape my own back and needed to prove it can be done. i struggled behind the mirror for over an hour before putting it with proper tension. only then i realized the jammed part of the vertebrae had a softball sized bruise

day 1665 Рpropensity 


staying true to my words, i made an appointment to have my physio tend to all my aggravated body parts. i’ve had continuous overload of activities as of late which has been taxing in on my body. my trusted physio basically went full body adjusting my thumb, wrist, neck, back, tailbone and ankle. before getting fixed, i was with my kinesiologist who once again challenged me with another of his newly invented exercise and then revisited one i found difficult last time around. i felt like i was circus in training, working on stability with two balls and discs. surprisingly what was hard the first time is no longer hard anymore

day 1656 – sweats and frees

img_20200203_1331598620157539190912403.jpgsaturdays are sweatpants and frees kind of day because i’m in a judge free zone. running around all day, literally, and it was a very brisk run that also included an eye appointment and none other than taekwondo. i’m experiencing some dryness and haze so will require another follow up appointment sooner than expected. it’s not alarming, but not what i wanted to hear

day 1623 – fully discharged

i’ve waited long and hard, to hear surgeon’s very words, i will discharge you from my hand clinic, congratulations. that was further confirmed at my physio appointment who also said i’m cleared for sports with no restrictions barring any pain. on top of that, he who rarely compliments me did so for i maintained my alignment since he last adjusted me. the usual hardwork with the kinesiologist who not only worked me hard on the rehab exercises, but also gave me extras stuff i never even thought was possible out of me. he’s one of the biggest reason i’ve improved so much through the years and i’m gratified he’s given me all these challenges. the back to back appointments couldn’t have tasted any sweeter as i left both clinics beyond elated to hear that i came out triumphant. i will be able to sleep well tonight

day 1612 – skills competition

at a new venue with new fun games but same old game. a little action to once and for all test the how the brokenness deals with the game of hockey. taking my holiday break easy for the most part. putting my body through tension and maximizing it before checking in to physio where he did good amount of work on my hand. normally he wouldn’t worry whether my pain tolerance would withstand his adjustments, but he was extra compassionate to me today. he knew the work done on my long tendered thumb was very hard on me, but i exercised full trust in him and let him do what he needs on me

day 1610 – poke some

img_20200203_1429513128816583509973269.jpgi don’t know how i feel about needles anymore. at a follow up appointment in continuation of treatments of my broken thumb, i was shown the needle that was poked in me. to my amazement, some of the needles used on me were as large as my palm. he did some painful stuff to my thumb which neither felt like stabbing nor poking, but more like scrapping with the needle as if he was going to lit a match

day 1606 – photorefractive

didn’t end up having surgery done for my thumb back in october, but i certainly am having one done today. it took quite some courage to pull the trigger but prk finally done in the books. it’s a huge trigger and a huge change that i gladly braved, knowing it will be miserable during recovery stages. it involved a large sum, but i’m all in to making everything about my future brighter. rarely do i make clear cut decisions, but this one i made with confidence, for it will pay dividends in the long run

day 1603 Рneedle poking 


if it weren’t for meeting some crucial deadlines, i shouldn’t even be at work because i felt so faint with low blood pressure. also didn’t help that i could hardly keep my eyes open during work and no amount of caffeine could make a difference. once i was i’m off, i went to poke needles all over my body to fix some overarching issues. i’ve always been the type of person that is willing to do anything to push injuries quicker so i can be game ready – this case is no different. sleeping problems worsened as a result of rising work stress and possibly holiday stress. it’s not a bad thing to be stepping it up, only need to make sure i don’t faint before i get them done

day 1597 – clinic time

img_20200203_1431175968127080246208118.jpghand therapy appointments can’t be described as fun when they passively manipulate my joints to do what it can’t do at this point. this visit was a little of waxing, ultrasound, heat pads and exercise mixed in. although it’s still not as functional like i need it to be, regaining some functions is noticeable progress. an increase in grip strength and pinch strength is expected but still good to see. it will come back to me soon. it’s in my nature to be pushing harder than what i should be going for