day 2370 – antsy cleans

a fun gym session joined by two friends. i last olympic lifted three weeks ago because of pec strain. i was scared but i wanted to see if i was able to do light cleans without shoulder pain. i started with sixty five pounds but somehow felt okay and worked it all the way to one plate. i probably could have done one forty, but wasn’t going to risk it. we ended with some box jumps and i’m happy to report i jumped a thirty nine inch box which basically matches my personal best. now i feel a little more motivated knowing my ankle can get back into things. my previous goal was to hit a forty inch box jump, but i think a forty two may be a goal down the road

day 2364 – phone hijacked

whipped out my phone to film how my current back tucks look like. i left my phone for a bit and so many of these photos appeared in my album. my back tucks are looking more ‘complete’; it certainly evolved a lot since the first ones. the confidence and consistency has improved tremendously and the landing is a slightly softer and more controlled. i’m still working on my set to get more height in this flip so i can have an even softer landing which would be easier on my ankles

day 2311 – relax and recover

somedays you just got to take care of yourself even if the sky has fallen. i really felt the need to just get away from the negative thoughts and try to do what will make my body better. i need to heal the rest of my ailing body. nothing right now can really change the way my ankle is, but i’ve been reading up on it and getting new learnings. talking to people with different knowledge and experience has also given me more insight and reassurance to some degree

day 2309 – mri results

i think shocked wouldn’t even be the correct term to describe myself after finding out the mri results. i’m pretty shaken that my ankle ligament is completely torn. it didn’t really hit me on the spot, but as the day went on and i digested this news, i’m feeling pretty discouraged and utmost concerned. it strikes me that i will forever not have this ligament and it will never heal itself. if not treated, i will have no chance of being able to do all that i love doing – my sports career will be changed and limited forever. i had some chats with doctors and friends, hoping to get their thoughts and views on it because i clearly couldn’t keep my head above water

day 2303 – deterred

felt antsy and wanted to push my foot’s limit a little to see how it reacts. i did some step offs to test absorbing impact and it seemed fine. i then tried to jump onto a small box and that’s where the troubles began. i couldn’t bend very much before my foot gave in and collapsed in pain. no matter how many times i tried, i just couldn’t load my foot properly. discouraged enough, i moved onto test some squat positions and that was also concerning. narrow squat stance was painful but snatch squat stance was doable. i left pretty upset feeling no progress made with my foot

day 2279 – foot issue

everything seemed fine during training and i even landed my handspring on floor midway through. two hours after the fact, my foot started having shooting pain. i’m beyond puzzled why my foot is in so much pain that i ended up at the emergency. the area below my ankle had a big hard bump that i described as bone-like. i went through the standard protocol and took xrays, left the hospital with the doctor diagnosing it as an achilles tendonitis. i had a chiro and physio take a look and both think it’s much more than that. i could no longer weight bear and had to resort to crutches to get around

day 2107 – swollen infection

when i look down at my ankle, it’s safe to say there’s something really wrong with it. i got myself into my chiropractor because i thought my ankle was locked, jammed or sprained of some sort, turns out i needed to go to hospital more. the size of my ankle is twice the size of my normal and there’s random bruising on my ankle bone not to mention it’s burning inside. he suggested there’s an infection and get it checked out as soon. me being me, i checked the emergency wait times and declined. i wasn’t going to spend six hours at the hospital, but booked in to see my family doctor tomorrow morning