day 2399 – anti bullying

wearing my christmas sweater in support of anti-bullying pink shirt day. there was a period in time in where i was bullied in grade eight. i got called names and i got shoved into a locker. there i was, thinking it’s normal so i put up with it for a bit. that person eventually got kicked out of hamber. thinking back those were unhappy times that didn’t need to be. had this continued, my hamber years would not have been some of the highlight years of my life thus far

day 1135 – sunroof or moonroof

img_20200203_1344219016386932400635767.jpgdays without gym time always feels worse. giving my car a wash and treating it better than i treat myself. it’s the rare occasion you will find my sunroof shut. i used to like the nights, but they don’t treat me well anymore. the sun doesn’t come out anymore, neither does the moon. i guess there’s nothing out there giving me light; i could simply be spinning in circle for all i know. another night that didn’t end well; it’s uneasy but swallow it and get used to it. sleeping is overrated because the darkness is where everything happens, where all thoughts come out

day 1130 – hockey practice

image

the morning started off good gearing up for a practice with teammates before the regular season. i was thrilled to be on ice with gear, sticks and pucks but that was the only bright spot. somethings got in the way but it was a setting i had to keep my composure and pretend nothing was wrong. i spoke my exact feelings and thoughts, but the thorn is way deeper than what i can remove. it was an unsettling feeling that started off sour and ended sour; made it far from an enjoyable rest of the night. i needed a punching bag more than anything and deep down i had the urge to go get one