day 2060 – floor tucks

i’m beyond stoked that i just landed my first ever back tuck on unsprung floor. with the successful reps i had this week, i was encouraged to try it on taekwondo mats. i stretched and warmed up on four separate occasions but stopped short and almost wanted to back out because i felt pressured when there were too many students and parents around. i waited until the last hour of teaching before i decided it’s now or never. i committed to the tuck with everything i got, and to my amazement, i landed on my feet. i did it a second time because i couldn’t believe it. every part of me was shaking well after, but all i felt was the craziness of succeeding on something i’ve been longing for

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day 1684 – milky taro


the craving was there long ago, but this is actually my first taro bubble tea of the year and it was all in for the milky oreo taro slush. shared a kimchi fried rice but left the restaurant so full so worth it. it was also a fun social gathering of the civil war draft. as much as i wished for the sharks colour, i’m happy being in the golden ducks. both my ranking, scouting report was decent and being picked at where i was was good too. it’ll be a good season probably getting ice time playing multiple positions 

day 1606 – photorefractive

didn’t end up having surgery done for my thumb back in october, but i certainly am having one done today. it took quite some courage to pull the trigger but prk finally done in the books. it’s a huge trigger and a huge change that i gladly braved, knowing it will be miserable during recovery stages. it involved a large sum, but i’m all in to making everything about my future brighter. rarely do i make clear cut decisions, but this one i made with confidence, for it will pay dividends in the long run

day 1080 – antidote

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yesterday was a forgettable day, but today is a new day and i can’t stay down for long. the unwanted things that went through my head was erased by a much needed workout. going all in and straight for all the heavy lifts today; exhausting my body is my most effective stress reliever. this has really become a therapeutic activity for me because my mind wanders less when i am physically engaged. all i want to focus on correcting what’s wrong and strive to be better

day 660 – going all in

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it’s all or nothing, like gambling at the casino. the only difference is i am in total control of the outcome. i think i give myself too much pressure cause i have my own standards and cannot afford to lose. i’d be performing not only in front of the grandmaster, the instructors that’s taught me from the very beginning, but also the students that i have been teaching. saved up all my scholarships so i could use it altogether at times like this. saying goodbye to all the awards, now i am feeling poor all over again but at least i am using it for something worthwhile