my flex day consisted of no alarm clock, no schedule and barely any moving. desperately needed this day off after spending many hours working blackbelt test, training for blackbelt test and taking the blackbelt test. the boards i held and the boards i kicked left so many cuts and gashes. basically spent the morning watching a netflix movie and another movie at the theatres in the afternoon. no part of me wants to go back to work tomorrow
work lately has been a total drag, i don’t look forward to going into the office at all. many mornings i hear the sound of my alarm and have no urgency to get up for work. i think the change in my scope of work and responsibility no longer makes me interested and satisfied. helping test out the 3d printer today was a way to pull me out of the boring tasks i’m currently working on
i did absolutely nothing today except eat dumplings to go along with my movie marathon. i need days like this when i could sleep in with no alarm clock to wake me up at 6:05, no rush from work to games nor commitments. i even chose not to hit the gym because my body told me it needs the rest it deserves. this year the brand new phenomenon i’ve learnt is occasionally listening to my body instead of my always go go go response. it took me quite a while to grasp this concept
it’s cake time for the one and only barbie i’ve ever had in my life. an asian fruity sponge cake to make him feel special on his special day. i think deep down he’s happy just having all members of the family gathered for a good meal and then some cake. it was good that i caught up on some sleep because i needn’t set an alarm. it was an even better day being lomo’s happy tenth. we were both busy and didn’t have our celebration, but we’ll have it tomorrow
sleeping has been an issue the last couple days. falling asleep has become increasingly difficult; waking up feeling like i never slept last night. i lay in bed seeing the clock strike 2am, then 3am and realizing my alarm is set to ring in four hours. it’s never a good sign when i get agitated easily and don’t feel up to doing anything productive. these days when i am indifferent about everything gives me a terrible and empty feeling inside. could it be the stress and unease as the competition date gets closer??
the long weekend continues and i get the privilege to sleep in without worrying about my alarm clock. woke up to see updates from my parents with photos of where they are at. the latest update has them in paris doing all typical tourist things, which makes me jealous and wish i could be traveling as well. what makes me most jealous is they will be watching french open live and witnessing federer play live is something i am longing to do