day 1887 – envisioning

maybe it’s not a bad idea to take up presale condo shopping as a new hobby. making myself comfortable and envisioning my soon to be new home. i’ve been eyeing multiple developments and wanting to invest in one for quite some time, but i have some more saving to do before i can hold down a unit. definitely made some progress over the last little while, but better sit down and strategize how it can be sped up to make my dream become a reality

30 share it [nineteen]

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gifting is an art and so is taking pictures of gifts. coffee beans for christmas present is pretty darn good. i’m gratified to have made it onto his christmas gift list. it means i did something right and stood out from the rest. it’s my reward for growing into and becoming a stronger person; i’ll keep growing and keep attaining. i’ll be sure to enjoy this dark roast to complement the dark winter days

out from stumbles

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lately i have been stuck in a rut fighting myself, losing my sense of direction and not knowing what i want to do with my life. i would carry on and beat myself up, then question whether my existence is meaningless. that’s not to say i have figured everything out, but i have decided to stop beating myself up and believing i am worthless. point is, i need to correct those behaviours because it would only hurt myself and hurting myself is hurting the loved ones around me; i hate to see others get hurt. i do feel apologetic for being silent and quiet about my problems, perhaps i am not quite good at sharing my troubled thoughts. i don’t mean to make you guys worry. it won’t change overnight, but i’ll try harder to be more open and vocal about what goes on inside my head. it’s time to realize i am not suppose to settle to be an average person, just like the millions of other human beings on earth. it’s time to step up my game and live up to expectations and chase my own dreams. doing so is nerve wrecking, but that’s the only way to grow as a person and expand on what i have already accomplished. i know that whichever path i choose to take, i will have the support of those around me. i want the supporters in my life to know that i was born for a reason

day 1107 – yonder

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taking advantage of the sunshine by going on a short hike up burnaby mountain. peeking beyond the trees to catch a glimpse of the undisturbed water and islands out north. i can’t explain all that’s going on inside but getting out into wilderness draws my attention away from life challenges and disturbances. but no matter the situation, trying to not let it get to me. all that’s waiting for me is just beyond the horizon

day 1096 – walk of life

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everybody’s walk of life is a little different, this is my night time walk. i’ll find my way that leads to the path that my heart desires. it’s been a day of a weird long weekend full of unexpected circumstances and sudden turn of events. one that gave me a lot of realizations and held a lot of hard truths. although it was a laid back day, i am still very tired and could use the extra rest. i’ll give my body a break since i am too sore to benefit from exercising

day 916 – resourcefulness

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fiddling with whatever i can get a hold of as the chat continued through the night. sometimes i need distractions to stay involved in a coversation. had an interesting conversation with really self driven and motivated people that’s always looking for ways to make an impact. the conversation made me think about things in a different perspectives and made me wonder if i would thrive with the same drive. what they taught me was you must first and foremost love what you do because there’s no purpose or reason in life without passion

resolution series: [thirteen] independence

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at times like this when my parents are travelling around the world, i realize how much they have to do on a daily basis. even the most basic things like cooking meals, doing laundry, washing dishes, turning off lights, and taking out garbage. they take care of majority of all that, making mine and my brother’s life less stressful. though none of that those duties are difficult, they are very time consuming. the act of preparing, cooking and then washing the dishes is a tedious process and before i know it, an hour as passed by. as i grow older, i come to understand how precious they are and how dependent i have become. this is definitely the time to learn how to be more independent so to relieve my parents of their burden. slowly getting better at it, and good knowing that i won’t starve to death or run out of clean clothes to wear while they are away. going through the learning process of supporting myself physically, emotionally and financially. learning that earning money is hard but saving is even more difficult. understanding that success doesn’t come overnight and everything that contributes to future success requires utmost commitment. at a certain point, i won’t have anyone to lean on but myself. only when i can manage all that can i stand alone. there comes a time when i need to give back because that’s the least i could do in return