day 1610 – poke some

i don’t know how i feel about needles anymore. at a follow up appointment in continuation of treatments of my broken thumb, i was shown the needle that was poked in me. to my amazement, some of the needles used on me were as large as my palm. he did some painful stuff to my thumb which neither felt like stabbing nor poking, but more like scrapping with the needle as if he was going to lit a match

day 1603 – needle poking 


if it weren’t for meeting some crucial deadlines, i shouldn’t even be at work because i felt so faint with low blood pressure. also didn’t help that i could hardly keep my eyes open during work and no amount of caffeine could make a difference. once i was i’m off, i went to poke needles all over my body to fix some overarching issues. i’ve always been the type of person that is willing to do anything to push injuries quicker so i can be game ready – this case is no different. sleeping problems worsened as a result of rising work stress and possibly holiday stress. it’s not a bad thing to be stepping it up, only need to make sure i don’t faint before i get them done

day 873 – more needles

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back for more needles because i need my finger to work. it’s been getting better, but progressing slower than i’d like. at times i test it out cause it feels good enough to take on more, but i go overboard and it tells me to back off. feeling more and more impatient with each passing day, it’s really driving me up the wall. time is ticking and every minute passing is a minute of wasted and missed training time

stay the course

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it’s been an atrocious week for me. ever since dodgeball playoffs ended last saturday, my world has turned upside down. a visit to emergency room on sunday morning didn’t give me the slightest idea of my finger injury status. i haven’t got a clue what was going on, what my path looks like, or what i should do. my biggest fear is the severity will keep me from training for what quite possibly is my one and only chance. i was really worried because i am already feeling pressed for time because there isn’t an abundant of time remaining and there’s a lot of training and learning needed to be done. this competition is one that i have been really looking forward to, so i would be more than disappointed if i cannot compete. but at the same time, knowing i will not risk entering the competition if i know i am not prepared to give myself the best chance possible. i was beyond stressed out because i couldn’t even tell my loved ones the truth of what happened and what was going on in my head. i was forced to really downplay the whole situation and acted like nothing is wrong when truth is everything was clearly not right. i spent the next four days really battling myself and everything else, and at some point it got so low i felt like i was a wreck. thankfully i am surrounded by people willing and ready to help. i knew i couldn’t continue to let everything get out of hand; i needed to pick myself off the ground and regroup because no matter what tomorrow holds, i needed to fix my finger. an acupuncture treatment was a good start to reduce the swelling and increase the mobility. a date to see my physio really put me at ease cause i trust him more than many, so when he says he’s almost certain there’s no fracture, i believe him. slowly but surely, it’s making progress and it’s looking a lot like my hopes for competition is still alive

day 868 – finger fix

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just trying to get help for my finger by having an acupuncturist poke me repeatedly with needles. in order to decrease the swelling and bruising, draining some blood out of my finger is a must. she told me it’d hurt a little and that i will lose six to seven drops of blood; she told me not to panic, and i didn’t. maybe it’s the fact that i didn’t, that she decided she’d go through the process twice. i would admit it was painful especially having her squeeze it out, but i am disappointed i didn’t lose twelve droplets nor did i manage to get good snapchat footage of the process

day 633 – acupuncture

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this is perfect execution of the phrase using my time wisely and couldn’t have used my time anymore efficiently. i was able to fit in an appointment for some needle poking and massage between morning poomsae training and afternoon teaching. believe me training more days and longer hours takes its toll on my body. this is just one of the many things i need to do to keep my knee and other body parts as happy as it will allow

day 37 – failing wrist

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meanwhile, my other hand is still failing me in many ways and everything is made so difficult when my dominant hand is weak and useless. continuing my stint of experimentation and hoping i stumble across something that will heal my failing wrist. maybe more needles, herbs and stinky ointment might make it better. just for reference, acupuncture burning gives off really strong scents and makes me feel like i am smoking some kind of weed