day 1562 – corridor floor

third day of the contractor laying down hardwood floor. it’s coming along nicely; he’s working slowly but diligently as those curved steps on the stairs is complicated. i hope he can get more done over the weekend so i don’t have to deal with the sawdust. it’s looking quite nice but i still don’t like how the random creaking noises comes with. no matter what, i think i’ll always prefer carpet in my bedroom

day 1561 – doms 

a day after a hit my squat pr at an unexpected time, doms has taken control over and my legs are out of commission. i longed to reach my peak again and kin forced it to happen. he said that’s enough of plateau and wanted to break it for me. i’m glad he cracked me cause i would never have made the bold move myself. hope this is the first and my other personal best will be coming once i am completely out of rehab 

day 1560 – forkless 

in my packed lunch today is one of my favorites korean bean sprouts that my mom knows i love. eating late lunches means people get dibs on everything, everyday. cutlery especially forks miraculously go missing at the office, but i got to eat my lunch somehow. if all spoons go missing i’ll soon be eating with whatever utensil is left which could be knives or tongs

day 1559 – flooring 

together with my parents, we moved all the living room furniture over the long weekend to prepare for more home renovation. came home from work and the construction guy ripped out the public area carpet on the main floor and started laying out hardwood floor at the stairway. it will very be dusty and loud over the next couple days. i’ll miss the warm fuzzy feeling of the carpet, but i’ll have to adapt to the grainy feeling

day 1558 – me menu

called everything off and put myself and only myself on today’s menu cause i need time alone to set my priorities straight. absolutely no work related tasks today – no work for the first time in sixteen days. i was going down the wrong path of cramming work in to avoid idle time which in turn has even more negative effect on my mental health. can’t say i’m not a workaholic but then realized i was more burnt out than ever. so first time sleeping in until eight, helped my parents moved furniture, went for a workout and cleaned my room. that is not to say i don’t see the relationship struggles, but we’ll both be working on it together. i do feel better thinking i’ve reset my priorities and reorganized my life for the upcoming week

day 1557 – dockside view 

a sunday going across the bridge to north vancouver, west vancouver, then granville island. hit up the lonsdale quay market and park royal before some fancy seafood. this isn’t our usual calibre for dinner, but came here for the patio dinner and that view. treasure the extended time together; it only happens on special weekends. it was an enjoyable good day but i’m disappointed i couldn’t keep the better part of me to myself

day 1556 – out there

i did not sleep much last night, or maybe didn’t sleep at all. instead, i drove out around and around thinking of so many harmful things and thinking i want to be out of this misery. then it’s like i woke up from a dream and went on with my life like every saturday – more of work. this day it’s all me holding up the whole class alone got me quite drained. good thing i didn’t up having some fun at drop in hockey or else i would probably have crashed at some point