day 2271 – out of reach

i once wrote this list of things i wanted to drill and moves that i want to have. it was something i needed to keep myself accountable while chasing these moves, but none of this is happening and not sure if i’ll ever be able to get back to drilling anything. honest to god, it’s really wearing on me and some days i cry myself to sleep knowing i may never be able to achieve any of these goals. i’m going to put up a fight, knowing so

day 2270 – stay home sunday

stayed home originally thinking i’d be lazy, but turns out to be a work afternoon. i finished the much delayed payrolls for terms of killarney because someone complained about class reserve distribution. the email chain started getting out of hand and in turn made me even more agitated. i checked the spreadsheet and all is good to go until he makes other complaints. at least i got off my plate and onto better things

day 2269 – broken teacher

trying to teach all the classes being on less than one foot combined. my left didn’t work well before and now my right is heavily crippled. capping off the last class of the shift with the poomsae competition team. surprisingly made it through the whole shift without having to demonstrate any kick at full speed or full power. it helps that all classes went smoothly and all except the first class came ready to learn

day 2268 – sky fallen

it feels like the world just crashed on me. i wish my first instinct was incorrect, but i’m pretty certain i’ve just torn my other retinaculum during the battle. it was a bad judgment on my part – i shouldn’t have tried to sync the cartwheel back tuck and should just went for it on my own. now my everything is in jeopardy and i can’t help by think that my hopes and dreams of competing or even tricking in general could all be over. it hurts thinking not even reconstructive surgery can be a solution and all i can do is keep waiting and hope there’s a chance it will heal itself to a usable state. no one truly understands the physical pain i’m going through at the moment, and definitely don’t understand how much this hinders me in all the things i do and love doing. i just know i’m not ready to say goodbye to any of those things

day 2267 – brief scare

taking that puck off my arm in last night’s game was a heart stopper for sure. my mind flashed back to so many things that happened during the time i broke my thumb. it narrowly missed my wrist bone; had it hit, i can’t imagine what the outcome could’ve been. i had at looked at by my physio friend and thankful i didn’t have to go to the hospital. i admit i play aggressive, but i swear i’m not careless

day 2266 – nacho game day

this is the most skilled team we’ve versed so far this season. it was evident they were very seasoned as seen with their passing and chemistry. they had danglers, great passers and sharpshooters. we lost the game, but probably played one of our best team game and stayed with them the whole game. like any other wednesday, my legs were dead tired by the time i got home for another late dinner. i was happy to see all the chasiu baos waiting for me at home and devoured all of them after all that expenditure

day 2265 – bad millie

the most difficult thing after a three day weekend is waking up for work the tuesday back. 6am rolled around way too soon and the sky was still pitch black. just trying to eat my lunch and millie got way too close to my liking. she knows i dislike her, yet she tries to pounce on my leg. i feel like the more i she knows i dislike her, the more she tries to get close to me and get my attention. maybe i’m the only one i the office that has yet to hold, feed or pet her

day 2264 – scooter ride

just because the sun was still out, we did a spontaneous trip out with scooter rentals. i must admit i was nervous since i’ve never ridden a scotter in my life and haven’t ridden a bike in years. we rode it from the shop in mount pleasant to ubc, taking all the bike routes possible. i stayed pretty safe for the most part with the exception of putting my foot down while trying to stop at top speed. that really did it for my knee and i couldn’t put much weight on it afterwards. it was a really fun experience and this checks off one item off my bucket list. though next time i know to layer up because it got really chilly

day 2263 – photography walk

caught up with a friend and went outside to enjoy what may be the last sunshine of this year. it was a productive yet adventurous photography walk through olympic village and mount pleasant. we stopped to take pictures of many art structures and murals. a little disappointed we didn’t get any beta5 puffs before they sold out, but earnest is nothing to be disappointed about either. taking advantage of open gym because i can afford to have a late night

day 2262 – family thanksgiving

we dont normally have a big celebration for thanksgiving, we save the turkey and the luxurios for christmas time. celebrating both mom’s belated birthday and thanksgiving in one dinner. my family doesn’t consume much, but as usual, we order way too much our stomachs require. all of us are super busy with our commitments, but we’re all just smiling because we can make time to spend these special days together