林奕匡 – 有淚多好

it’s a good song, but a sad one. a song that looped and looped over hundred times in my car and on my computer because it speaks for my heart. i can’t explain and don’t want to try to explain why tears just keep rolling uncontrollably. all this is just wreckage to my soul, and i’m ready to pull out to end the misery. every day i tell myself that this will all be over some day. i guess i’m just waiting for the moment to speak and get it over with

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day 1505 – physio revisited 

getting my hand checked out gives everyone a peace of mind, but knowing it’s more serious than i thought isn’t what i wanted. he was not surprised of another new injury plus my preexisting list of injured body parts. to my physio’s dismay, he told me not one, not two, but three tendons were sprained. i guess the pain i felt was real but forcing it very hard wishfully thinking the pain isn’t real. having high pain tolerance is good but it does come back to bite me. also got my knee and hip adjusted as per usual and wasn’t expecting my knee cap to be out as well. aside from my knee, he was quite happy with the shape i was in