diminishing return

i take pride in what i’m capable of and the steps towards progression. i get that not everyone will appreciate accomplishments the same way. i’ve been on the receiving end of far too many discrediting comments that has no sentimental value. it would be nice to pay respect for my abilities when due instead of always heaving knit picky deconstructive criticism. leave it behind if it’s all negativity with no good intent; just don’t expect any in return. i’ve been disappointed that communication has been sparse and lacking lately. understanding the busy schedule that we run, there’s no reason to have no contact or replies until well after the fact. i no longer want to force anything so i’ll respond when i’m asked, otherwise i’ll stay behind the scenes and mind my own business. it’s kind of taken some of the joy out, but at least i’m not talking to myself. these are the little things that show a lot. life is a two way street and i’m a true believer in what you give is what you get in return. my patience isn’t unlimited so i won’t continually give knowing there’s nothing in the other direction

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day 1378 – recoil

found my blue jersey just in time for spring season opener tonight. it was a fun game, getting our first win of the season helps. my ribcage feels so aggravated i had to pop more tylenols. it’s not a good sign when even lying down hurts. the constant recoil is a concern because it’s never been so unstable before. it’s calling for another visit to the chiropractor office this week. i’m starting to think the whiplash from the car accident jolted something out of place without me knowing it. i’m starting go feel like