out from stumbles

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lately i have been stuck in a rut fighting myself, losing my sense of direction and not knowing what i want to do with my life. i would carry on and beat myself up, then question whether my existence is meaningless. that’s not to say i have figured everything out, but i have decided to stop beating myself up and believing i am worthless. point is, i need to correct those behaviours because it would only hurt myself and hurting myself is hurting the loved ones around me; i hate to see others get hurt. i do feel apologetic for being silent and quiet about my problems, perhaps i am not quite good at sharing my troubled thoughts. i don’t mean to make you guys worry. it won’t change overnight, but i’ll try harder to be more open and vocal about what goes on inside my head. it’s time to realize i am not suppose to settle to be an average person, just like the millions of other human beings on earth. it’s time to step up my game and live up to expectations and chase my own dreams. doing so is nerve wrecking, but that’s the only way to grow as a person and expand on what i have already accomplished. i know that whichever path i choose to take, i will have the support of those around me. i want the supporters in my life to know that i was born for a reason

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day 1113 – olympic fever

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in the midst of summer olympics happening in rio, i am also getting my share of action – olympic lifts. a little correction and a lot of practice goes a long way. i am slowly but surely getting better and smoother with my clean and jerks. i’m pleased my clean and jerks have improved vastly since i first picked it up, need to work twice as hard on┬ámy snatches so it will eventually catch up. a pretty good way to start off hump day before dealing with various pressing issues and projects with deadlines