day 908 – post week one

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week one of rdl season four in the books and it was a successful one. the gang having post dodgeball late night snack – their late night snack. playing together as a team for the first time, we had a very good night racking up nine wins against some tough opponents. i think this team has great potential and will only improve as the season goes on. for someone who went through a tough high rep training prior to dodgeball and exhausted to the point where putting gear on was quite difficult, i played ridiculously well. but why am i surprised as history shows i play better tired

stumbling

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i can’t be certain if my mind and my heart will still be in one piece come end of this month. there were so many times this month when i sat alone in the dark wanting to cry, wanting to run myself through the wall, wanting to pull my hair out and wanting to quit everything. but then, when i think about it again, what good with that do?? would it solve all the problems and frustrations i have at hand?? before i did anything careless, i managed to step back to gather myself and viewed things from a broader angle. stumbling is part of life, falling down is a must because that’s when you learn what you are made of. i’m sure all the greats have fallen at some point in the lifetime but somehow they managed to get to where they are now. i know i had to make some big and extremely tough decisions lately, but i made them and will be able to live with it for the rest of my life. there’s a lot of things in my life worth striving for, a lot to look forward to in the future. i shouldn’t let one or two or a few setbacks dictate and ruin my life. i promised myself i would only give myself a week to dwell and regroup, but after that, i will once again find the determination to move closer to my dreams and goals